whiterabbit;

feed your head, feed your head FEEEEEEDDDD YOUUUUR HEAAAADDDD.
jefferson starship/jefferson airplane (whichever you prefer) had it right all along. feed your head. i'm not just talking about reading and attempting to become increasingly intelligent. feed your head. the thought you think in your mind are the attitudes and actions you present outwards. lately i've been feeling really down and shitty, and i've been thinking not so much on the positive side, and its escaping out of every part of my being. but that is turning around. i'm making some changes. i'm feeding my head quite simply. every breath in may seem like the same old air, but it isn't. its a new breath of life, it means you're so very much alive, you are providing the necessities for your mind and body to continue onwards. onwards and upwards. that's how i feel i've been moving the past few days, i've really picked it all up. scatterbrained is one word which greatly describes me but i'm done fighting it. i am breathing it in and creating new life, and who knows what i'll create with the new life i'm giving myself? maybe i'm just going stir-crazy, cooped up in the same old house with the same old faces. maybe i'm going out and making it happen with strangers. maybe i'm finally losing it. all i know is lately all i've been wanting to do is listen to the music of generations past and drive. or maybe frolic in the snow, a daily reminder that nature rules above all else. everything has been feeling so cluttered and unnecessary and just ughh just not how i feel i want it to be what i surround myself with. i've been experimenting with loneliness the past few days and its been invigorating. knowing that you can go wherever you so please on your own terms, no one to report to or please, just living life as nature intended it to be. natural. speaking of natural i've been becoming more vegetarian-orientated lately and its left me feeling fantastic. leafy greens and bright oranges and reds, sour and spicy and sweet, crunchy and juicy and overflowing with natural goodness. i sank my teeth into the seeds of a pomegranate today and let the juice pour down my face for a few seconds, letting it all soak in, nutrients straight from the earth itself, what could be better feeling? running, feeling the sweat pour down my face and combine with winter's cool breathy breeze on my skin and hair. its so i don't even know how to describe it.. unsoundly perfect? naturally disarming? perfect just doesn't seem to do it justice.

ps. this was a rambling post of no theme or purpose, but its just where my heads at i suppose.