i have my computer back, after a long 7 weeks without it
i have this weird feeling, it is a sort of dread and mostly it makes me feel really, really alive.
its as if i feel like doing everything i've ever dreamed of doing and i have all the energy in the world for it, and i know i could do an outstanding job and just overwhelmingly go go go go go go feeling
you may think, hey! that's wonderful, you must get soo0o0o0o0o much done.
this feeling only comes to me at night. when it is too late to run errands, or run on the streets for as long as i feel like. i wish to ride my bike all over the town and blast music and dance around and make food and drive fast and build beautiful things and swim, oh i could just swim forever so it feels. i just want to propel myself forward. i don't know what to do about this feeling, it keeps me up at night, i just don't feel tired. then i awake after about 4 hours of sleep and dread the day. i don't want to do anything at all, just stay under the covers with my favourite music, my cat and some movies and books. its driving me up the wall. i'm trying to get out this feeling by writing a bit each night, trying to get out some creative energy. it is hopefully going to help me morph into a daytime energy spaz hurricane lightning bolt of gogogogogogo.
that's all i got i'm afraid. i made a curtain today! below is a photo of it in all its glory, finally something to do with that fabric
