laughing and running

so I'm sitting in my room, listening to the love shack (the song itself is irrelevant, but the fact is, its shaking my floor and walls, and its much too much alive [not that there is such a thing]) the room is alive with light, and quite simple, I'm alive. I am feeling the most alive I have felt in the longest time, and its just honestly the best feeling in the world. I am almost done school for the year, so I have the greatest feeling of accomplishment, thinking about how much I've been cramming into my brain, its practically exploding with epiphanies and revelations and just knowledge. man I love knowledge, its just so beyond comprehensible that we have an organ that retains information, and can be called to attention whenever. isn't that just unreal? I'm smiling and laughing and just everything about everything seems so beyond perfect, even though I know it isn't, I'm just in such a mood to overlook the small things, I mean, hey, none of them have killed me yet! why be so down and out?!

livinglivinglivingdyingdying,

when did you stop living for yourself?
you don't go after anything you want, you sit back and watch people take it away from you.
you allow distractions of every kind set you back and hold you there, but you're dying to move forward.
you're dying, dying to move forward.
its okay to live for yourself.

for the sense of sense,

there is no such thing as common sense or sense in a general term or anyone possessing a sense in which they can relate that sense to the sense of another.

there is merely what makes sense to you and is therefore your prerogative and ideal of what everyone else must also see as sensible sense.

but they don't. and that's no need to be upset. enjoy the fact that you can always have a sense of self-sense that cannot be shared.

a mental, mental note

I found this note I wrote along time ago, and still, after the past year or so it seems to directly apply to my surroundings.. I guess at one point I knew what I was talking about!

"always remember, its about being and doing, NOT having. stop reading this unless you are stuck on the bus, 'cause everywhere else, you got work to do. Egypt isn't gonna bring itself to you.

Pay attention to what you're doing, and do it properly. take everything you can from every single situation you find yourself in, you NEVER know when you'll need that knowledge.

Let go of anger. Let go of doubt. One thing at a time. Now. Go. Smile. Do. Be.

It's never going to be perfect, it's never going to be just what you imagined, but you will find, if you stop, think, and really appreciate, you will be satisfied.
You will look around and you will see an ugly jumble of colours and a crazy mixture of people all tossed in a hilarious mix of situations that you've come to love the most.  Learn to love every minute of it. It's not as good as it seems, and it will never be just what you wanted, BUT, it will be wonderful, and it will make you happy. open up, look around, take a breathe, jump in and smile. "




- and with this mentally mental note, I'm beginning my day with a little help from myself.

when you love love.

I have been so ruddy distracted lately. I know what most would say.. "that girl must have some kinda boy on her mind".. they aren't wrong, but they are not entirely right either.

the idea of love.
it keeps me awake at night.

not in a "I'll never find love and I'll die alone" sort of sense, I don't believe in that for a second. but the idea that so many people all over the world are dreaming about love and everyone is wanting that special kind of love. it not exactly what you are presented with on a daily basis but in a sense, it is. it is a fairytale for you and it mostly just involves a big warm hug and kiss that lets you know that who you are is more than okay with a certain someone whom you quite fancy. I don't believe in settling. when I think of those who settle for anything less than what they absolutely want, I am saddened for them. I mean, if everyone is out there searching for that feel-good-to-the-tips-of-your toes-kind-of-love, then, it can't be that hard to come by, can it? it's hard. this I know. but, keep dreaming. you just gotta get there.

good things

today I was watching a film with a great friend and I just became so overcome with my thoughts I completely lost myself in reality and in the film. I was imagining myself in a world in which I was surrounded by beautiful, good things. I don't mean materialistically beautiful and I don't mean good as in "high quality" or "top of the line name brand", I mean beautiful and good things, that pertain specifically to me. I want to surround myself entirely with things I love, things that mean something to me. Not useless items that I have been hoodwinked into thinking I want or need. I want to enjoy and truly appreciate every single thing that is around me for what it is in general, and what it is to me, and how it came to be and how simply beautiful something just being is. Isn't that what we are all doing, just, being? I feel as though a major purge is coming into my life, and items that do not hold a dear value to me will be put to a better use by someone else who will love them, and in such an act, I will participate in simplicity. It is so much easier to see everything that is good and well around you when the objects of negative vibrations are removed, not to mention less stressful to worry about the heaping piles of stuff you have laying about. Good vibrations, good feelings and a great way to end a stressful week. Simplicity, you bring out the best in me.

sweat,

yesterday, I was exercising my body intensely and I realized something I never thought of before. All my life previous, I thought of sweating as something that is both gross and unnatural. That is was something to frown upon and should not happen. As I lay, sipping a wonderful glass of ice water in the sauna, my body started pouring sweat. Every pore was leaking this liquid which I had never truly appreciated before. Think about it. Your body releases sweat to cool itself down, its our body's way of telling us we need to cool down and replenish the hydration we are naturally losing. It's not the enemy, its merely, a part of the natural life which we live. And its purpose is a real part of the circle of natural health, a circle which we could all appreciate a little more, as, afterall, its what keeps us going.

new at this!

not really sure where to start! I made this blog I guess to express alot of what I think about and dream about and want out of my life. I am posting to have a continuous recollection of my life and see what others think in reaction to what I think and believe. ahah I guess that's all I got for now!